Baru bangun aja gua udah mikirin lo. Sebelum tidur pun gitu.
Gelang motor yang lo kasih ke gua kemaren sore aja masih ditangan gua. Iyalah, ini kan susah dilepas.
Gua gak bisa lupa perhatian lo ke gua. Gua megang peralatan motor lo yang banyak olinya, lo marah takut tangan gua kotor. Gua duduk di tempat kotor lo marah. Gua megang pelantik api lo marah. Tangan gua sakit karena lo ngiket tangan gua, tapi lo langsung ngambil gunting buat gunting gelangnya, lo ngeredain rasa sakit gua. Gua bilang gua gemeteran karena nyium bau rokok, lo bilang "itu tuh krn blm makan, udah makan belom lo?"
Gua tutup mata gua, gua bayangin gua yang ada dipelukan lo. Rasanya gua mau tidur aja. Terlalu nyaman. I never felt this way before.
Gini deh, disaat lo(pembaca) tidur dan ngerasa aman, tapi lo ragu bakal mimpi buruk. Lo ga jadi tidur dan memutuskan untuk bangun. Tapi lo tidur lagi. Bangun lagi. *Mbah surip
Jadi ya, lo bingung. Lo salah apa nggak.

Gua mau pergi tapi lo narik tangan gua. Lo tau tangan gua sakit lo tarik, selalu rasa sakit yang sama saat lo narik tangan gua. Tapi lo tau itu pun nggak ngaruh, gua seneng karena setelahnya ada dideket lo.
Sebenernya gua bingung sama semua ini. Gua gak mau deket sama seseorang tanpa perasaan. Gua gak tau, ini emg perasaan suka gua ke lo atau karena dia. Sahabat lo itu. Maaf kalo kata-kata gua kasar. Tapi apa karena lo sahabat dia, dia yang masih selalu ada dihati gua, lo jadi pelampiasan gua ke dia? Mungkin.
Saat dideket lo gua ngerasa ada dideket dia juga. Tapi gua sayang lo..
Gua gak tahu pelukan lo kemaren sore itu karena sayang atau nafsu lo. Tapi sumpah gua gak ngerasa itu kyk nafsu, I really felt safe and warm in ur arms.
Let me in.
Meskipun gua tau lo bukan tipe orang serius. Lo cuma mau main-main dalam hidup. Bahkan lo pacaran juga cuma buat main-main. Cewek yg lo pacaran itu cuma buat lo 'pake'. Tapi maaf gua bukan cewek yg suka main-main. Yg kemaren itu perlu dipertanyakan& butuh status. Tapi lo anggep semua itu sepele. Please gua mau lo berubah jadi dewasa. Bisa mikir mateng-mateng atas semua yg lo lakuin.
Gua udah suka sama orang yang salah.
Lo punya pacar. Gua tampak seperti cewek m****an.
Lo ngasih gua satu harapan kelabu. Mungkin kita bisa cuma temenan kayak gini. Tapi gak dengan keadaan lo udah terikat sama seseorang.
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"Dear John,
Two weeks together, that's all it took. Two weeks for me to fall in love with you. Now we have one year apart. But what's one year apart after two weeks like that together?
You made me a promise. A promise I know you'll keep. So I only want one more promise from you during this time we spend apart. Tell me everything. Write it all down, John. Sribble it in a notebook. Type it out, e-mail it to me, I don't care, but I wanna know everything. And that way we'll be with each other all the time, even if we're not with each other at all. That way before we know it.
I'll see you soon, then."

Beautiful, isn't it? I got this letter from "Dear John", a romantic drama movie. I saw it yesterday. Hmmmmm, I think there's one more from this movie that I'd like to share. It's a few conversation between Savannah and John.

Savannah: Full moon tonight. Do you ever notice how big the moon is when it's rising? And how little it gets when it's up in the sky.
John :It actually doesn't matter where it is in the sky or where you are in the world. If you hold your hand up and close one of your eyes.. It's never bigger than your thumb.

How sweet. They're standing under the moonlight.



And...
This.

A reply from Julliet

"Dear Claire,
'what' and 'if' are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together, side by side. And they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life.
What if?
What if?
What if?
I don't know how your story ended, but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like,
a love to leave loved ones for,
a love to cross oceans for,
but I'd like to believe, if I ever were to feel it, that I'd have the courage to seize it. And, Claire, if you didn't, I hope one day that you will.

all my love,
Juliet

Ihis one letter is from "Letters to Julliet", a classic hollywood love story. I saw it this morning. With same actor, she's Amanda Seyfried. I prefer this one movie than the above. Simple but sweet c;